I am e x h a u s t e d.
I have been struggling to find my way back to myself. Back to some semblance of center. Back to my relationship with gravity. Back to the ground.
I am sitting with this inquiry—how do you find more when you feel like you have nothing?
There have been so many moments as of late where I have felt that I have nothing. It’s not a feeling of numbness or emptiness. It’s a lack of life force, a sense of low energy. It’s the how I am going to make it through another sixteen-hour day of parenting and work and responsibilities and paying attention and showing up for the world? All the while waking at all hours of the night with a four-month-old baby, a two-year-old with night terrors, and a five-year-old adjusting to sleeping in a different room.
Before I became a parent, finding more in states of exhaustion pushed me into seasons of burnout. Each time I dug deeper into whatever energetic or bodily reserves I had, eventually I ended up in bed. …